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Here to Stay Ft. Kruz Vega & LaDii J (Prod. By: J. Boom)

by Apollo's Sun

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On July 9th, 2020, I lost a woman named Deseree Rose who I loved very deeply to an accidental drug overdose. I was the one who found her. Nothing anyone can do will ever bring her back nor fill the hole in my heart, so some close friends of mine and I decided to keep her alive in song form. We are trying to raise some money to help her mother pay for her funeral costs and do something nice for her 3 beautiful children who are now left without their mother. By purchasing the song for $1 or more, you are directly contributing to helping pay off her funeral costs. Please consider contributing to our process. We hope you appreciate: Here to Stay.


Apollo's Sun:

I begged for you to stop, you took that knife and stabbed it more
Now my heart’s a battered shore, scattered on my cabin porch

(You were worth the fight;) I saw the birth of light
Despite the fact that you would always think you’re worthless and you don’t deserve this life

But you did, now I’m rooting through the ash
To find the beauty that is left and separate it from the trash

I hate the fact that I can’t take your back and make it work again
We’ve built this circus, versus back and forth until we hurt again

I loved you, (then I hate you), but ain’t that how the game goes?
We lived inside a glass house and both cast the same stones

That break bones; but now I’ll hold your babies tight
And let them know I’ll love their mother for the rest of my life

And now the story changes, and I’ll cherish where it goes
I just wonder what happened to my Deseree Rose?

Chorus: (Apollo's Sun, Kruz Vega, LaDii J)

I know I’m not alone
But I know that something’s changed
I know it’s no one fault
But at times I feel the blame
And everyone is angry
And at times I feel the same
Talk about you like you’re gone
But for me you’re here to stay

Kruz Vega:

I could only watch
As the waves would wash
Pulling you closer
It hurts a lot
This ain’t the way thing should end
My dear friend

But a lot of your struggle
And the pain you were in
Can finally be alleviated
Sleep well my friend
But it’s not just the shock
Or the wave when it hit
It’s the pain in its wake
And the face that I’ll miss

It’s the love
And the hugs
And the smiles in the kitchen
Living free
Country mud
And the love for your children

Now in them
Lives your life
And we’ll love every glimpse
And you’ll never be gone
Only loved
Always missed
Cause we were family
So from lil bro to big sis
Just know I’ll see you soon
And we won’t let em forget

Final Verse:

You were the perfect wreck, fight between light and dark
You were a first step, a best friend, a light in my heart

You were the best test, best love I ever knew
You always were the best for me, it’s best I give my best to you

Your eyes were so beautiful, they brought me back to home
To remind me I will never live life all alone

And I’ll miss you every night, all the ways that you sleep
When you put your body close to mine when you count sheep

There will never be another you
You always made a better me

So now it’s only cuz of you
I found the man I’m meant to be

I wish we didn’t have to say it
I wish we never wrote this song

Damn, I wish so much was different
Like where the fuck did I go wrong?

I wish I had some one to blame
Some one I could pin this on

Cuz I could list a thousand names
And not a one could say I’m wrong

But none of that’s gonna change a thing
It doesn’t change the fact you’re gone

And none of this will bring you back
But in our hearts you will live on


released August 25, 2020
Featuring: Kruz Vega & LaDii J
Produced by: J. Boom
Recorded/Mixed/Mastered by: The Green Room (www.facebook.com/GRRecordingStudio/)
Harrisburg, Pennsylvania)
Artwork: Anthony Beaston (www.thingsdoneframed.com)


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